Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Montana

I will be going to live with Jacob and Rebekah's probably in the middle of January or at the end. I know that my work or part of my work is in Alaska. I feel the call to sort of preach. I do not feel that it is God's will for me to be a preacher of a local church but I guess to be an evangelist. Hopefully I will be able to get studied up on my pilot license. I am excited to be moving to my Sister and Brother-in-law. I should probably go now. I'll write later.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Psalms 60:11-12

11 Give us help from trouble:
for vain is the help of man.
12 Through God we shall do
valiantly: for He it is that shall
tread down our enemies.

Psalms 60:11-12


Thursday, December 11, 2008

What is the other choice?

The other choice is death in sin. For some reason I allowed my eyes to be blind. To be blind to a loving and just God. The two choices are very important. Either to be in hell for an eternity or be with a God who loves us for an eternity. A eternity. With God forever.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

To tell you the truth.

I will probably not post again on this blog. I am definetly not God's worker for a while and probably never again. I believe He is real though. I might post on a different blog.

To tell yiu the truth

Unless something happens nothing will grow in the Church here in Bethel. I am tired of repeat after repeat. I was getting tired of being a Christian for so long. I am now tired of being a so called *Christian*. I am tired of this tangled mess of things that happen in my life. I wish I never was a Church of God member.

Monday, December 8, 2008

New Post

I am getting kind of stressed out with school. I got behind a lot with school when I worked three hours every week day at Subway. I now only work on Monday and Friday from eleven in the morning until two in the afternoon. Without Jesus life is almost unbearable. It is dark. A very organized force. Satan knows what he is doing. In ways it may seem crazy in the ways he works but every single one of them strings into one main goal. There may be only a few or only one way to get almost rid of Christianity or at least make it really small. Torture does not work. Although since Christians have not been tortured in the U.S.A *YET* a lot of Christians will join the other side of fear of the torture. But the big way would probably to let *Christians* get very comfortable in the world (which Jesus told us that we are in the world but not of it) and make them have freedom's. ONE WAY TO KEEP CHRISTIANITY TO THRIVE IS PERSECUTION !!! The devil tried to use that stragedy (sp?)and still is but it is not working hardly at all. When the devil tries to get rid of Christianity through persecution it is like trying to put out a fire with gasoline! (my history teacher said that and I believe it) This is hard to explain. A way to let Christianity to slow down is too let Christians have their WAY. Make every thing feel nice. (freedom, life, and Christianity). Many so called *Christians* are blind.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

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8.6 degrees Fahrenheit .

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Our Fathers Fought for Liberty by James Russel Lowell

Our fathers fough for Liberty,
They struggled long and well,
History of their deeds can tell-
But did they leave us free?

Are we free from vanity,
Free from pride, and free from self,
Free from love of power and pelf,
From everything that's beggarly?

Are we free from stubborn will,
From low hate and malice small,
From opinion's tyrant thrall?
Are none of us our own slaves still?

Are we free to speak our thought,
To be happy, and be poor,
Free to enter Heaven's door,
To live and labor as we ought?

Are we then made free at last
From the fear of what men say,
Free to reverence Today,
Free from the slavery of the Past?

Our fathers fought for Liberty,
They struggled long and well,
History of their deed can tell-
But ourselves must set us free.

Awesome temperature!!!

0.9 degrees Fahrenheit outside!!!

Monday, November 17, 2008

Kind of cold.

It is six point three degrees Fahrenheit outside.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Cold outside (kind of, not too bad, in fact, perfect)

It is twenty-two point one degrees Fahrenheit outside. I work at Subway tomorrow from eleven, in the morning, until two p.m. I will be trying to get caught up with my school tomorrow with quizzes and tests and current events and a background paper, for my science project. I am tired and am going to bed.

Friday, November 14, 2008

You are not alone.

If you stay at home alone for most of the day, your not the only one. If you stay home every day alone except Saturday and Sunday, your not the only one. If you get bombarded with the enemy at home ALONE every day, your not alone. If your about to go crazy because you stay at home every week day alone, your not alone. If not for God, life here in Bethel would go haywire. It is hard to imagine that a God would suffer so horribly just to save a ignorant, stubborn, and rebbelous creation. God is very good. Even through the black darkness of the world. Suspecially in Bethel. When you can feel Satan's bombardent at home at night. Jesus, Saviour, Friend closer than a brother, Father. We have no idea of how much love He has. A righteous judge. You are not the only one if you stay home alone. You are not alone if you fall down allot and it seems as if you can not get up again. You are not alone when people do not understand that being home alone every weekday for about 8 hours every day is very depressing. When there is not much but work in a house every day. You are not alone if you are tired of this. You are not alone if you think about suicide but change your mind because of family and friends. You are not alone if it seems like God is not real but real at the same time. You are not alone if you get afraid because you are by yourself and suicide seems good. Your not alone when things at church does not change and it is the same ol same ol. Your not alone when things of life makes one go into a rage. You are not alone.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

IT IS NOT EASY!!!!!!

Learn to dream big and actually do it. It requires extreme hard work but it will be worth it. Either fighting hard the temptations or working hard and and hard thinking to make a business of any kind. It requires quite of bit of knowledge with Mathematics and Algebra but it is worth it. It may require sincere attention to every class. It may require hours of practice to make a Sonata make you feel good. It may require just sitting down and just study. NOTHING easy about it. It may be NOT FUN AT ALL. BUT IT IS WORTH IT. Tests and quizzes are no longer drudgeries. If you want to be successful in allot of things , WORK AND STUDY HARD. TAKE THE BOOK AND READ AND STUDY even though it is NOT FUN AT ALL!!!!! Unless if you are one that can make A's without studying then that is cool. But a continual exercise of the brain is needed. It is not fun at all but it is worth it. SAME WITH GOD. WHAT A DAY THAT WILL BE WHEN WE GET TO HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!! NO MORE TEMPTATIONS!!!! NO MORE TEMPTATIONS!!!!!! NO MORE TEMPTATIONS!!!!!! NO MORE SORROWS!!!!!! NO MORE SORROWS!!!!!! NO MORE PAIN!!!! Having mansions that God has made for us!!!!!! IT IS NOT EASY NARROW ROAD!!!!! IT IS NOT EASY LEARNING!!!!! It is not easy turning the eyes, head, and thoughts that will halt our race to the finish line!!!!!!!!!!! IT is not easy to keep reading a book for school to be a successful person. WHAT A DAY THAT WILL BE!!!!! Imagine! Seeing Jesus, the one who died for us!!!! I CAN NOT EXPLAIN THE JOY TO BOTH GOD AND KNOWLEDGE!!!!

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Excited!

I will be going to Anchorage again on Friday. I will be leaving on Era at 5 p.m. or somewhere around there. I think it is a hour and forty-five flight or something. I will be there for two weekends. I will leave on Monday (not this coming Friday but the next one after that) in the morning on Frontier. That flight is about 2 hours. Oh, well at least I will be able to see my Brothers again and Megan. IMPORTANT - pray that God will have His way with whomever will be the President of the United States.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Algebra 2

Here is one of my algebraic word problems. (The last lesson that I did was 28) Here is the problem: " Two boys sold 350 stamps from their collections. They sold some for $.30 each and others for $.50 each and received in all $116. How many stamps of each kind did they sell?" One of the most recent ones is this problem: "A man has $4.20. He has twice as many quarters as dimes. How many coins of each denomination does he have?" (gr? for both.)

Getting Excited!

The minister's convention is coming up very fast. I will be leaving on Friday morning to Anchorage on Era. I have never went to Anchorage on a two prop airplane. I have only have gone on jets to Anchorage. I will be staying a week in Anchorage. I will staying for the revival and one and a half days of being with my brothers and sister. God bless you all!!!
Nathan Peter

Saturday, October 4, 2008

!!!FINALLY!!!

COLDNESS HAS FINALLY COME!!! 23.6 DEGREES OUTSIDE!!! I would prefer a colder temperature though. There is fog outside. There is frost almost everywhere. BUT FINALLY COLDNESS HAS COME!!!!

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Alaska

God is sooo good! We are truly blessed to live in the United States of America. There might be some things that are not going well here but certainly not as bad as other countries. Finally, on the first of October, it snowed. On the second of October, when I woke up and went outside to start my Mom's car, there was snow!!! Snow that stayed!!! I am getting very excited about winter. Hearing the screaming of the snow-machines and the coldness. If one gets dressed warm enough and go for a walk in 10 degree, or lower, weather one would be suprised, maybe, of the wind blown snow that looks cool because the wind has made interesting curves in the hard snow. Or seeing the jagged frost on wood post and on trees. In about a week I will be going to Minister's convention. Which will be on next Friday (not this Friday) to Sunday. I will then be staying until the next Friday. School is going a bit better now. Doing three hours a day (Monday-Friday) put me behind school allot. I am slowly catching up though. Thank the Lord!!! I am feeling a whole lot better than when I posted last! God is sooo very good. For some reason I like Bethel allot. There is something that is unique about it. Maybe it is because it gets extreme cold weather that makes smoke rise very very slow above chimneys. It also might be the people here. I do not know. I know that I like to go up river and catch allot of Salmon. When I went fishing with Isaiah, Matt, and Codi. We were catching allot of fish. The adrenilin that rushes through ones body when seeing people catching salmon crazy and trying to hurry up and get out of the boat and get that rod fix up and finally casting that first swing and having a Silver just biting that lure up good and giving you allot of exercise of just trying to get it close to you. Hearing the line shooting outwards when a silver bites it is very exciting. We were going up the Cheserolic (sp?) (I think but I am not sure) to the first gravel bar and getting excited. But before going to the gravel bar there is a big eddy that we were catching Silvers left and right. Having about every cast a bite. (I know it sounds like a fish story but this is Alaska) I had too quickly put a new leader on my line becuase the other one broke if I remember right. Fishing up river is sooo much fun. Hunting is very fun too. Caribou, and birds and probably allot more. I know that Moose hunting is going to be open soon if not have already this year. I should probably go now and read Silas Marner. It is a book report book that I have to read. Good night and God bless You!!!

Nathan Peter

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Thank the Lord!!!

"Peace, Peace, Wonderful Peace, Coming down from the Father above."




I have never had a bad cough as this before. Coughing so hard that stuff inside my body was coming out. I still have very hard coughs though. I am not trying to brag but I feel peace inside of me. Even though I get scared sometimes when the cough is persistent.

Monday, September 15, 2008

Peace

Life is good. Or actually God is good.

Peace.
From "Dietrich Bonhoeffer: The Cost of Freedom" I agree with him what peace might be. Peace is not just the freedom that we live day to day. It is not the pleasures of this life but it is an assurance to look up to. It is the peace of God. Someone will really know peace when they are in the storm. They will know when bad things happen to the outside body of flesh. The world's *peace* is the pleasures that will either turn right back to dust or it might be a worldly stuff and money that will just make them want more money. Peace is not really in the body but with our spirit. It's not the flesh that brings us peace it is God who cares for us. Worldly pleasure is just simply worldly pleasure. There can be peace when the world is at turmoil. There can be peace when someone is being tortured or being killed. But if your not a Christian there will be only the pleasure of the World and you will have no peace at all. The Bible says something like what profiteth a man if he gains the whole world but loses his soul. The thought of hell and heaven concerns me deeply. The though of eternity is big. An eternity. Eternity in hell boggles my mind. To even to have one sin to not let me go to heaven. God considers (if I remember right) jealosy as bad as witchcraft. There is no significant sin. All sin is big too God. To God, I am pretty sure, a murder is not worse of a sin than a lie. Peace. When some one murders a brother or sister who is a Christian. When a dictator kills millions of people. There can be peace. If we have God. Peace should not be confused with worldly pleasures.

Oh! when we will go to HOME. but remember that the fields are white and ready. What are we waiting for?

God Bless You All

Nathan Peter

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Went hunting.

Three geese and ten ducks.

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Very short post.

It is 52.7 degrees Fahrenheit and wishing that it will at least get into the forties and just cold enough to kill these pesky gnats. Tired. A little stressed. Going to bed.

God Bless You All.

Nathan Peter

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Hunting.

Got up this morning and listened to storys on the radio. Then I took care of Dakota. After that I did basically all of my homework and went hunting with Isaiah. We got back from hunting just a couple of hours ago and I took care of Dakota again for the last day. I caught 2 Ptarmigan but I took down 3. The third one was just sitting there for a while and then when it started to try to fly I went toward it but it was too late and it flew too far and over very marshy spongy tundra and we decided not to get it. A little while ago I cleaned the Ptarmigans with Isaiah's help and now i am going to head for bed. I am very tired. Isaiah and I hiked on spongy soft tundra for about an hour both ways and probably more. Hiking on ground that sinks is tiring.

God Bless You All!

Nathan Peter

Friday, September 5, 2008

Forty-Eight degrees Fahrenheit. (48.8)

The temperature is 48.8 degrees Fahrenheit now and the days are getting (or daylight) shorter. Today I registered at the college for Computer Literacy Basics. Today two employees did not show up for work except for Jack who did not stay. So for this lunch rush hour it was only me Matt(assistant manager) and Jordan (manager). They are both really nice. Tomorrow will be the last day that I will have to take care of Dakota (the Siberian husky). That will be nice. Oh, back to college. I will be going to classes on Tuesday and on Thursday. So I will have to probably only work at Subway on Monday and Friday. The reason why I would not work on Wednesday, is because I have piano lessons and there is church. It is 11:27 p.m. and I am very tired. I will most likely get up at 7 a.m. to go hunting with Zay and Bro. Rusty Cabalas. So I should go to bed.

God Bless you all!

Nathan Peter

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

God is Good!!!

This morning I was not feeling to bad but to bad (for me) to go to work to Subway. I have all my videos done today (not the whole school year) and I have most of my homework done I think. It is 58.3 degrees Fahrenheit outside with some clouds (not much) in the sky with a little breeze. God is sooo good. Even if I feel miserable and things are not going by really good. Like yesterday and a little bit today. I can not wait until it gets at least cooler here. I am getting tired of these pesky gnats and mosquitoes. I got quite a few scars on my left arm of scratching the very itching bites on my legs and arms. Oh well, God is good.

God Bless You All!

Nathan Peter

Monday, September 1, 2008

The things that is happening around here.

Temperature is 56.9 degrees Fahrenheit here now and I am wishing it was colder. Last night I played Halo 3 with Isaiah, Marshel, Tony, Kevin, Derek, John, and somebody Watson, and later with Kyle Mortenson, and Nicky. What I would like to do is to start working on my aviation books. I have seen allot of geese here in town and or beside town. Just to let you know. My managers (that came from Sacramento, CA) consider Bethel a town that is added to a city. The managers have only been in AK for only a month or so if I remember right. Subway also has a new owner that came from California I think. The managers are very nice and the owner. I will be taking care of Dakota (the Siberian Husky) for a few more days until Saturday. Tony will be leaving to go to college in Fairbanks this coming Tuesday.
Please pray for me to know what God wants me to do. I do not know how I am going to do all of the schoolwork, that I need to do, with having a job also. This is what I am suppose to be doing. Take care of Dakota every Morning and Night. Go to work at 11 and get off at 2 p.m. In that same day I am suppose to do Bible, Algebra 2, English, World History, Biology, and Spanish. And then do homework that was assigned for every subject (except Bible because it does not have assignments except to work on my memory verses) and it is not working. Today I had to do allot or quite a few quizzes and studying for the days that I did not do all the homework during the week days. Anyways, life is good I guess. Very very very stressful but good. Not pleasant. Not fun at all, but God is good. Hopefully I will save enough money to go to Anchorage and maybe spend a few days with Micah, Megan, Matt, and Codi. I will probably still have to do school but (to me) it will be worth it. Working at Subway is fun (at some times) and it can get stressful as well.
God bless you all! I hope you have a good week.


Nathan Peter

New Post

I am probably most likely going to have to quit working at SubWay. I am not able to do all the schoolwork that I need to do. How many people do High School and a dog job all at the same time? Oh well, I will at least get my working hours to only be for two hours instead of three. I might go to work tomorrow and I might not but I will most likely will. My life seems to be very stressed allot of it is my fault and the other is just that there is not much time to get stuff done.

Thursday, August 7, 2008

"1 In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth.
2 And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters.
3 And God said, let there be light: an there was light.
4 And God saw the light, that it was good: and God divided the light from the darkness.
5 And God called the light Day, and darkness he called Night. And the evening and morning were the first day.
6 And God said, Let there be a firmament in the midst of the waters, and let it divide the waters from the waters.
7 And God made the firmament, and divided the waters which were under the firmament from the waters which were above the firmament: and it was so.
8 And God called the firmament Heaven. And the evening and the morning were the second day.
9 And God said, Let the waters under the heaven be gathered together unto one place, and let the dry land appear: and it was so.
10 And God called the dry land Earth; and the gathering together of the waters called he Seas: and God saw that it was good." Genesis 1:1-10

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

At home.

When will things change? I am here at home. Where is the presence of God in our church. I am here every single day of just seeing my mom and a foster child (that gets on my nerves allot) every single day. Then when school starts it gets worser. I am home alone for all day until maybe about 5 or 6 p.m. The only other people that I see is Isaiah, the Cabalas, the Mojins. Non that is my age. Jacob comes about every week. That helps. A hour of typing, A hour of piano, and doing some languages every day except for maybe Saturday and Sunday.

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Getting Excited!!!

On this coming Monday, I am going to Montana then in the next early morning I will be leaving with Aunt Cathy probably or someone else to go to the North West camp. I will be leaving Monday. Get into Montana at midnight. Then leave Montana at 5, 4, 6, or sometime in the morning around that time. It is currently rainy here. The temperature is 50.9 degrees F. Yesterday night Bro. Cabalas and his family came over here. He helped Isaiah put on Isaiah's new boat engines. The boat engine is a 40 horse power Honda. Also yesterday night I went to Isaiah's place to play Halo 3 with Tony, Marshel (sp?), and Kevin. Jeff came over later in the night.

Monday, June 30, 2008

New Post

Our house is looking very different. We are having it painted. Also hopefully Drake hires me again to help him paint. I get 10 dollars an hour helping him. Mostly moving the ladder for him, although he had me carry 3 very heavy buckets of paint. We got new chairs to put around the kitchen table. I'll probably write later maybe.

Monday, May 12, 2008

Very Excited!!!

It is only about 3 weeks until the Alaska Family Camp! I am getting excited about it. I to be done with 9nth grade before I leave. That means I am going to be very busy in these last three weeks. I will be done taking care of Dakota ( the dog ) maybe this coming Wednesday. This is my fourth time taking care of him. The piano recital happened yesterday. I did one duet with my teacher and another duet with Sam Deitle, and did two other songs. The duets I did were Allegretto by Carl Czerny and Rondo (from Sonata in C Major) by Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart. The other songs were Solfeggietto by Carl Philipp Emanuel Bach and I did the first part of Sonata in C Major by Franz Joseph Haydn ( It seems to me that S in C M is different than this other Sonata in C Major.

Monday, April 28, 2008

I do not know how to title this.

Another day that the Lord God has given to us. I thank the Lord for the goodness He has shown me. The Lord has answered my prayers even though other people may have not liked what I prayed for ,but I did asked and the Lord answered. Every day except on the weekends I do school and still on the weekend I do some school if I have to. Learning Bible verses have refreshen me this past week. My recital is coming up very soon. Sam Deitle and I are going to do a duet together which is going to be very challenging. When you are suppose to stay in tempo with each other with fingers flying away it, I am sure is going to take some more practice. The lessons seem to go by fast with my violin. Even though the classes take about 1 hr. and some min. I am really enjoying learning the ways of the violin. I am taking Jaff'e Strings. It is a challenge to play quickly with the violin, but I am loving every second of it. Isaiah got a wii and boy, boxing takes allot of energy and strength out of someone when you play like as if it were really happening. Dodging punches while looking for places to punch. Moving constantly and dodging constantly while throwing punches constantly. This Wednesday I start to walk the dog again probably until the 13th of May. June is coming up very fast and May is very very near. Time has flown by.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

God is Sooo Good!!!

The days are getting warmer over here. I think it has been in the high 40s in the afternoons. I think it reached 50(temperature). Have anyone noticed today that God is sooo good. I have heard complaining that the water prices are going up. Gas may reach 10 more dollars here in the summer. God is sooo good! We are not being in jail for believing in God yet. We are not starving to death like thousands that are. I live in Bethel, Alaska. Allot of people say that they can not live here (I am sure). One of the reasons I like Bethel is because I get to do allot of things in the summer. I usually go up in the mountains or near the Three Step Mountain to fish for salmon. I could walk to go hunting. I am not stuck in a building surrounded by other building for miles. There is something that I do not like at all and that is that in the summer there are usually tons of mosquitoes and gnats and little bugs that I do not know how to spell. I have nothing to complain about compared to Christians being persecuted. I am not suffering like the Jews did in the concentration camps. I am not sick. I did not get robbed like thousands probably did. I did not get shot at with machine guns like probably thousands did today.


I got the job again taking care of the Siberean Husky for the fourth time. ( I will probably start working again this next coming Wednesday[the fourth time]).

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Got paid.

Lately I have been taking care of a Siberean (sp?) Husky for quite awhile. The dog is very very strong and very nice. He listens almost most of the time you tell him to do something and he has giving me handshakes even though I do not ask him to. This is my second time taking care of him and this coming Saturday or sooner I will be taking care of him again.

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Days

Been having wonderful days. How about you?

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

My Caribou and a bloody paintball mask






Caribou and me

And the messy paintball mask that I used to help keep the wind out

Monday, March 3, 2008

News

I have news but need a picture for it.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008



Another post.

God is so Good. He is very good. He is watching over me at this very second. I have had and am still having very good days. Hopefully I will put up pictures that I might take soon in Bethel. I really love Bethel. Yeah, a lot of the houses do not look good outside maybe, but there is really really nice houses in Kasilli (spelling totally wrong). I have never seen as beautiful skies in ALaska then anywhere else. Debbi Karppala (sp?) who is a photographer kind of said that she has not seen more beautiful skies in Alaska then anywhere she has been. She is living in Kuwait right now.

Some Pictures






I felt like putting some pictures from last year that Megan took.

Saturday, February 23, 2008

It is a strait and narrow path and few find it . Unless you show them?

Trusting in Jesus is SOOO peaceful. Thinking of Him is peaceful. And when thinking of that, it makes me want to be closer to Him. God is ever so powerful. He is in control. He is almighty. He knows what is going on. He knows everything. He is a great comforter. Faith as small as a mustard seed can remove mountains. Oh the devil can try to magnify stress. The devil can try to make you feel that you have no chance at all. Feelings can be very misleading. The Bible says that the heart is very deceitful if I remember right.
Something totally off the subject. Am I willing to give God my ALL? WHY Would I not be?

Friday, February 22, 2008

A time to grow stronger.

I am tired of the devil even trying to get me away from God. The devil will try hard to get hard any one that he can get. There is one thing can not do though. He can not make our minds up. He can not make me do wrong. He might try his hardest to make me think like the stupid ways I have been thinking lately but I am going to try my hardest with God's help to keep striving toward what God wants me to do. Please keep praying for me. I thank all of you who have been praying for me.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

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Yes, I do believe there is a God. I know that there is a devil. Does God care? Does He really care for me? If He is, He is doing a horrible job at it. Every single time I try to do what He wants me to do something always happen. Either Mom or something gets in the way. I am tired of it. It is the Devil that is making all the trouble. I think the Devil is going to win this battle. The battle that has been happening as I know for months.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

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God is so good.

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

I am getting tired of this.

I guess things are going better. I do not know how to explain it but maybe. It seems as though I am stuck. I am not feeling like Sis. Tammi did but kind of like her. I feel like I am stuck in a canyon. Walls on every side and I can not get out. So I guess I am not doing better but probably getting worst. This is the first time a feeling stayed with me. And it feels real. It feels real. Could you pray for me please.
It seems as though God is not real at some times and then I know kinda at the same time that He is real. I hope I am not tiring you what I am saying. I really do. There is a great war going on. I do not really feel like praying or reading the Bible although I have asked God questions. I am going to say this " The Devil really really wants anybody that he can get." At nights I get sometimes very angry and I still feel the feeling of being stuck unless if for some reason I don't during the day. One day I want to get as close as I can to God and I find myself not really wanting to any more and still want to at the same time but feel that I can't.

Monday, February 4, 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY REBEKAH!!!

Happy birthday Rebekah! I love you, and thank you for being loving, compassionate, and being a very very good sister to look up to.

Saturday, February 2, 2008

..........

I do not know how to explain it but something is happening. I do not feel refreshed of the Lord. It is as though I do not want to do any thing with God. There is a part of me that wants to be with God and another feeling that does not want to. There seems to be something blocking and not blocking me. It is hard to explain.It is not really blocking it is something. Myself maybe? I do not know. There is a BIG turmoil, destruction going inside of me. I am not trying to get attention. This is what I am really am feeling even though I may not express it outwardly hardy at all. Why is it? One day I really am for the Lord. And it seems as though just not to long ago I do not really want God and a little tiny part wants to but the majority doesn't want God.

Friday, February 1, 2008

Why I need prayer

I have never felt the opposition greater in my life. After men's retreat the devil has been working. I do not know what it is. Questions has arised. Never felt so distant from God. Unexplained anger wells up inside of me sometimes because the questions and feelings. As I looked out the window I saw darkness mixed. Never felt like this in my entire life. Please pray. The devil has been bombarding me with lies like never before.

Thursday, January 31, 2008

Troubled again

Please pray that God will intervene.

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

What is the wait for?

The Lord has been so good to me today. He is alive right now. That is for certain. He is alive this very moment. Thousands upon thousands of people are lost. Please pray that Almighty God will bring up laborers into the harvest. IT is so hard to even bring up the topic of God (at least for me) to someone almost all the time. The last time I have ever mentioned God to someone was a long time ago. Please pray for me. Oh, the harvest is truly plenty. And it seems to me that the laborers are few. All things are possible with God. Have you really thought about it? All things!!! RIGHT NOW!!! As I have said, God is more real to me than I have ever felt in my life. We are able to walk with God as Enoch has. What are we waiting for? What are we waiting for???

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

NB

I should say that one of the songs of Newsboys kinda bothers me.

Do you feel it?

Oh! the greatness of God Almighty. He is sooo good. I am breathing. I am not sick. I have not been sick for a very long time unless for little runny nose but not much. God is going to work very soon if we obey Him. Oh! The Power of God. God is in control. What are we waiting for. We are capable to walk with God as close as we want to, but we MUST obey Him, Give our life to Him FULLY and to TALK with Him. Read His Word. He is alive RIGHT NOW. He is not just something that is real HE IS REAL. You are probably wondering why I say that He is REAL two times. This past week or two. I have felt the assurence as I have never felt before. He is Real. Why wait to give all our lives to Him FULLY. The last men's retreat was never like I have ever experience before. Every message. I have never felt closer to God than I have ever felt. I still need to work on my faith. I am able to read and talk to God for hours and still get stuff done if He wants me to. I do know this He wants me to get closer. WHY WAIT? What happened. I said this on the previous post. I felt that God was not going to work in Bethel, Alaska. Just like a week ago or two. That night my Mom prayed for each of us to feel a spirit of rivival. Something more deeper than a revival happened in my heart is still there. Five visited the church over here while we were at men's retreat! Glory to God.

Sunday, January 20, 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATT

Happy birthday Matt. I love you very much. You mean a lot to me. Thank you letting me go with you hunting, and for letting me stay with you for 2 weeks. Thanks for teaching me how to be a better kid.

A Good Day

God is very good. God is very good. Have you ever thought and came to realization that God is alive. He is alive and real every single place that you walk, run, sit, lay, and every where. He is alive right now. Oh, how my soul rejoice to come to the realization. I knew that God was real and that there is a hell and heaven and that The Church of God is THE CHURCH OF GOD, but I have never had a feeling like this ever. It is so clear and no doubts. God is alive right now. Oh, the love of God. Oh, the mercy of God. Oh, the realness of God. The Bible says something like this Ask and it shall be given unto you, seek and ye shall find, knock and you will be answered. One night I said to Mom that I see no change. I also said that the church is not changing either (the only member that I saw so far in Bethel was Misty Howell) and that it will probably not change. To the point that I said it will not change. Later on Mom asked me to pray with her that we would and others to get a spirit of revival. I feel victorious. The devil cannot prevail over THE CHURCH OF GOD. I was so wrong. I feel that God is going to work in a MIGHTY, A MIGHTY special way if we will do HIS WILL. IT IS TIME TO STOP PLAYING WITH THE WORLD IF WE ARE!!!! It is ok to have fun, but right now time is not permitting us to fool around at all. I am not saying to not have fun at all. I am saying "Put God First."

Friday, January 18, 2008

K300

Tonight Me, Isaiah, Ernie, and Mom went to the K300. Their was a lot of people there. We walk down to the river and went into the hovercraft and got an hotdog and went to see the mushers start. After all the mushers were gone we were going back to car to see the fireworks. This year there was a lot. Mom wanted to take a little short cut back to the car. When I tried to take the shortcut with them I fell on the ice shelf into ice cold water about knee deep. Did not get too cold. My feet stayed warm the upper knee got a little cold. I got out of the the water and went the long way around to the car. Watched the fireworks then went home. Later on Zay and I played Total Annihilation and beat our enemies. Myron Angstman went mushing this year and Jessica Klejka (sp.) in the K300. Hopefully I will be able to put some pictures up soon.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Another post.

The temperature just shot up to 33.3 degrees in the past few days. It feels warm. It was in the -25 or more or less just a few days ago. God has been very good to me. I do not deserve any of His love that He has sent me at all. I feel that the Lord is going to do some wonderful things pretty soon if we obey Him and do what He wants Us to do.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

I thought of something that I could write down.

Here are the languages I would like to learn: Arabic, Hebrew, Russian, Japanese, Hindi, Korean, French, and more. The languages that I am learning now is Spanish and German. Here are some of the instruments that I would like to play: bagpipe, trumpet, clarinet, and others probably. The instruments that I play now is the piano, flute, and violin. And I can not wait till I become a pilot. If God wants me to.

Short Post

Things are going better now. It is -22.0 degrees outside. I guess that's it. can't think of anything else to say.

Monday, January 7, 2008

Troubled

Please pray for me.