October 28, 2009. 4:46p.m. (ending)

Well, today is Wednesday. It snowed this morning :) I am quiet excited about the weather changing. I think I would have to say that I rather the weather be like 20 below to 10 above than for the regular weather of 32 to 100 above. This week has been relaxing a bit. I am still having to do school but the pressure that I had last week is gone so this week feels like it is really easy. Tonight is youth night here in Anchorage. Life is pretty interesting. It seems as though I have been living week from week trying to stay alive from day to day. Looking forward to every weekend as a time to rest and then abhoring what is going to come up next. Whether it be test the next week that I worry about failing or some other school project. But as I was walking to the Nowling's house today, my mind was going in a lot of directions, one after another. Why worry and fret a lot about making through a day? As I look at my life I came to the realization that I still have thousands upon thousands of days that I am going to still be alive. And even after I "die" I will still be "alive." Trying to answer that question was like hitting my head again and again. With concerts the singers sometimes say that it is only the beginning of the concert after a song or two but shortly after it seems as if it is already done after another few songs. What it seems like in my life is that there is forever. Three hundred and sixty five is ONE year. (365) I am only sixteen and yet people live to be 70-100 and sometimes higher. I have a lot of days ahead of me unless God takes me earlier. After realizing this it seems useless to worry about every single day and worry about this and worring about that, but life is full about worries that will never go away until God comes and get us. When one says that we are in a spiritual warfare, he and the audience will probably not get a full grasp of the words. Think about it. "WARFARE!!!" What is in warfare? Deaths, wounds, stress, and a whole lot of other things. But what is great is that Jesus will go through it all with us. There is a lot of stress in war. From being careful of not being shot to cleaning our guns of the dirt and grime that gets into them from intense fighting. Lucifer is not going to back down one inch of his plan. Through his plan he uses people by deception and others by who he really is. It is not safe to say that every thing that Satan does is by deception. He mangles truth with false. And he also uses pure truth to those of whom he chooses, but anyways the fact is Satan will never stop. Whatever he is doing, he will never stop. We must grow strong in the Lord if we want to overcome the enemy. We must pray! We must read rely on God not on other people! We must rely on God to move through us! Us! We are God's tools! We are the clay! If we want God's presene We have to praise God and rely on Him, not our feelings nor can we wait on other people to praise God. We, it is US. We pray. We get our strength from God almighty, the One that loves us. The One that will give freely only we ask. I have been attending the youth nights at the Church of God. It last for about two hours. We spend about a hour of worship and then a sermon by the youth pastor. Joshua Lynch is the worship leader. He said that he is sooo glad that we still have the freedom to worship. To trully worship God. Thanking God and praising Him. Lucifer is real. His power is real. I encourage you to step out of your comfort zones and not worry what other people will think of you, at church during worship, and raise your hands. Raise your hands even if you do not feel the presence. Show God that you surrender and praise Him. Take it upon yourself to get through to God and not from other people. The Spirit of God will radiate from another person but we should be the ones that will take upon ourself and have the Spirit and His power radiate off of us. Get out of your comfort zone and join the war. For what does God need you with if you can't beat the enemy because you do not have enough strength. The strength is there if you go through God. That does not mean that even though through the strength of God that troubles and tribulations won't come. The reason. So that you will become stronger through Him. Your Saviour and Redeemer. Your Strong Tower. I will probably post later but know you have the resources of strength: prayer and the Bible.

Finally this week I can kink of relax. :)

School has been going really good. Recently I got a report done about Shintoism. The report had to be at least 2 and half pages long. The thing was, was that I had to use the font size 12 with no spacing. Anyways so I got that done with the help of Micah and Micah also helped me with the poster and two pages of pictures and artwork. Without Micah's help I would be in trouble. Anyways, it snowed on the mountains again. Man I can't wait until winter comes, sort of. Well today we are going to Rebekah Saint James' concert in a hour or so. But recently Matt and I moved to Pinnacle. It has been really really nice. It has a one car garage, arctic entry, a good size living room and kitchen, plus I have a room again! With a BED!!! When slept on the bed I really did not want to get up but got up anyways and I felt better waking up because recently I have been sleeping on the floor with a sleeping bag for maybe about a month or so. I did not mind but it is really nice having a bed. I am currently in sports with my school. We are doing volleyball right now. But in a few games the sport is going to change. I went to Kenai to play against the Wings or Eagles (something) and we were doing horrible and I will leave it at that. Tomorrow me, Matt, and Micah are probably going to do some moose hunting. I heard we are going to have a good hike getting to the place so we are going to have to grit our teeth hauling the moose back if we get one. This coming week is going to be nice, I won't have to worry about any test or a pesky report. I feel relaxed. This week I did about four test and a report :/ so this week is going to be nice. I might take some pictures of the place we are in but history tells me that it won't happen so anyways I'll probably write some time in the future.

Nathan Peter